Between Darkness and Light excerpt by P.A. Brown

Downtown Los Angeles' old financial distrinct is the heart of this thrilling murder mystery and the unwanted love that grows between a cop with a dark secret in his troubled past and an up and coming world class artist. LAPD homicide detective Russell Hunter. A shadow man, an enigma. He is a man who has purpose but no goal. A figure who walks between the darkness and the light in search of salvation from the terrible mistakes of his past

Between Darkness and Light
MLR Press: October, 2010
ISBN: 978-1-60820-069-6 (print)
978-1-60820-070-2 (ebook)

Excerpt:

Chapter 1

Monday, South Spring Street, Old Financial District, Los Angeles, 3:00 am

The woman was dead.

I could see that even before I laid my fingers along her cool throat to feel for a pulse that was no longer there.

Even before I saw the surprisingly small, almost bloodless hole nearly hidden behind the screen of the blood matted bottle-blond hair hiding her face.

Behind me Danny shouted at the 911 operator who must have been wishing this was the night she called in sick and stayed home with the kids.

He was hyperventilating and gasping out words like "Body! Blood! Oh my God, she's dead! She's dead. Oh, God, you have to come--"

I took the iPhone from him and clamped my hand down over his slender shoulder, forcing him to look at me. The blue eyes that met mine were nearly as empty as the dead woman's. I was tempted to slap him, but knew that would only put him over the edge, a place I didn't want to go. Instead I squeezed his shoulder gently, stroking his collar bone.

"I've got it, Daniel," I said, wondering as I did how I could stay so calm when Danny was freaking out. Didn't I feel anything except annoyance this would happen tonight, after such a successful gallery showing? The night spent schmoozing up art patrons on the Art Walk suddenly seemed so distant. Maybe even unimportant.

"Take a deep breath. You're going to be okay." I stroked his back, all too aware of the tension riddling his slim body. "Breathe, baby, breathe."

Danny moaned, but did as he was told. Always such an obedient boy, my Daniel Ordstrom. It made him so wonderful in my bed.

I turned away and gave the 911 operator my name and address. She said a patrol car was on its way. Would I stay on the line until they arrived? Ignoring her, I disconnected and shoved the phone back into Danny's cold hand.

"Put that away." He obeyed again and huddled close to me. I put my arm around his shaking shoulders, patting his still rigid back, wishing I could take him away from this place. Danny was too fragile to endure much more of this, but there was nothing I could do. This was a matter that had to take its course now.

I knew we'd only get into trouble if we entered my loft penthouse. I studied the dead woman who had made it to my front door before being gunned down. I didn't recognize her... wait. I stepped up beside her and crouched down, ignoring the squeak of my new Italian leather shoes on the marble foyer. I stared past the screen of hair, at the face so curiously devoid of life. Her eyes were open and her mouth gaped as though protesting the misfortune of her current state. She reminded me of a figure in a macabre wax museum. Hard to believe this had ever been human, breathing life.

Behind me, Danny still gasped for breath.

I bent down to look at the woman, and he moaned. "Oh God, Steve, please don't..."

I ignored him and peered more closely at the woman's face, trying to see beyond the mass of brassy hair. I refrained from the temptation to brush it off her face, knowing that would totally freak Danny out. I studied the pale skin and wattled flesh under her chin. The fire-stop red lips and garish blue eye shadow. Then I realized what I had thought was blood in her hair was in fact some other red liquid that had partially dried there. I had seen that combination earlier this evening, hadn't I? I sat back on my heels. Shit, I did know her. And I knew where that stain on her hair came from, too. Not blood. Alcohol and cranberry juice. The remnants of Danny's Cosmo. Shit.

"It can't be," I muttered. But I knew I was right. It was Stella Gold, the vitriolic art critic for the Silver Lake rag, The Lake. She'd been at my show, hadn't she? I remembered her poison tongue going on about how I had sold out and couldn't be trusted to give an honest showing any more. "This is just peachy," I muttered.

After her verbal assault had gone on what seemed like forever Danny had flipped on her and thrown his Cosmo in her face. I could still see the sticky strands of cranberry and alcohol in her hair she clearly hadn't bothered cleaning off before she'd stormed out of the gallery swearing she was going to get both of us. Well I guess not any more. Someone had got to her first. But here? That made no sense at all. Stella had no reason to visit me here, or anywhere, for that matter.

Did she come here right after the show, looking for me? Not even stopping to clean herself up. She must have. But why? What had brought her here? Stella and I were hardly on friendly speaking terms. I'd never seen her outside of the few shows we attended at the same time. I couldn't believe she had meant to continue the fight on my home turf. Even Stella couldn't be that stubbornly obtuse, could she? What more could she have said that she couldn't put into the scathing review I knew she was going to write?

The press was going to have a field day with this. One of their own gets snuffed: news at ten. What a fucking sorry mess.

As though in response to that thought, the ancient elevator clanked and groaned into life. I knew even before the copper doors screeched open it would be a pair of uniformed LAPD cops, with their suspicious eyes and nosy, probing questions.

I sighed and pulled my bomber jacket closer around my shoulders, otherwise ignoring the sudden chill that flashed through me, raising goose bumps all over my flesh. Any way you looked at it, it was going to be a long, miserable night.

Mutt and Jeff clearly thought we were up to no good being out of bed at this time of night, standing over a dead woman. The dynamic duo separated us. I was led over to the far wall, by the mullioned window overlooking downtown L.A., awash with lights. The officer I was with asked a lot of pointed questions about where we'd been that night and why we were stumbling home at one in the morning smelling of booze and sushi.

From across the lobby Danny's voice rose until we could all hear his answers to the same questions. Neither cop seemed impressed when Danny informed them haughtily that I was Stephen J. Fischer, up and coming rising star in the Los Angeles art world, just recently off a whirlwind tour of Chicago and points east where I had sold out every show and netted enough money to pay for my new digs back home in L.A. Clearly they weren't art aficionados.

"What happens now?" I asked when the older of the two snapped his report book closed and eyed me with disdain, while I tried to sooth Danny's fragile nerves. Poor Danny. He had made a special effort to impress tonight. New suit, blush and even some mascara. It had been a sweet gesture, but now with his bloodless skin, it just made him look like a clown. It was obvious Mutt and Jeff thought so.

"Detectives will be along to ask you some more questions. It will be up to them to decide the next course of action."

Oh good, we were a course of action now. I wanted to take Danny someplace where people weren't going to stare at him like he was a freak. I sighed. "Can we at least wait for them inside?"

"I'm sorry sir. You need to wait here for the detectives."

"Of course I do."

Once the cops finished their questioning, Danny rushed back to my side. I hugged his shoulder to let him know I was with him and he threw me a sad, lost soul look. The older of the two cops threw us a stern look and I knew they wouldn't tolerate us talking about what had happened. So neither Danny or I spoke. We just took comfort in each other's presence, wishing this mess was over. Knowing it was never going to be over. Not really.

Cops must be like larks, they travel in pairs and they wake up way too early. Probably bonded for life. The first detective off the elevator was a pasty-faced fat man who wheezed and grunted as though he'd walked up the twelve stories to my loft penthouse. I wondered if I knew enough CPR to save him when he went into cardiac arrest.

Detective Lark number two was another ball game. And I wasn't talking baseball.

He strode off the elevator after his partner like he'd been coming here for years. His dark, piercing eyes took in everything in the crowded foyer in one sweeping all-encompassing glance, glancing over the potted ficus and single stalk of phalaenopsis orchid, nodding at the uniformed officers and dismissing them at the same time. Then his gaze turned toward me and I swear every evil deed I had ever committed or even thought about flashed before me. He could see each one of them and was not impressed.

Mutt and Jeff gave their report then went their merry way, leaving Danny and me to face the larks. The pair introduced themselves: pasty face was Detective Doug McBride, and his dark, observant partner was Detective Russell Hunter.

Interestingly enough, they both ignored the body on the floor, focusing their attention on Danny and me. I wondered if that was a calculated move to unnerve us. If it was, it worked. I wanted to tell one of them to have the decency to cover her up or something, but I knew my words would be ignored. They were in charge tonight. We were witnesses, maybe even suspects. I watched enough Law and Order to know the person who found the body was always seen as a likely suspect. Knowing the victim would also make them more suspicious. And the circumstances of our last meeting were not going to go over with this pair. I scrubbed my hand over my face, smoothing my fingers over my goatee. Wishing I could be anywhere but here. McBride led a shivering Danny back over to the elevators and glanced at Hunter who took me to the other side, opposite from where the body lay. I did my best not to look down at Stella.

I watched Danny, hoping he wasn't going to fall apart in front of these two. So far he had held on by his manicured fingernails, but I knew how close he was to the edge of hysteria. And an hysterical Danny would be a handful for anyone. I couldn't imagine what these two would make of it.

Then I was pulled back to the moment by my interrogator. "I need to ask you a few questions. Let's start with the basics, Mr..." Hunter pulled out a small spiral notebook and a pen, glanced at his watch and wrote something down, then waited for me to answer. I'd already told the other officers this, but I knew I had to answer anyway. God knows how many times we would have to go through this before this nightmare day ended.

"Stephen Fischer."

Pen poised. "Is that your full name?"

"Stephen Jeremy Fischer." I grimaced at my hated middle name, cursing my father who had carried the name and forced it and his memory on me.

Hunter went on to ask all my personal information: address, where I worked, phone, who was my next of kin, my mother's name, my father's name, my height, eye color and weight. He left the door open on my latest tax return and underwear size.

"Well, Mr. Fischer, what time did you discover the body?"

I rubbed my chin and tried not to look at Stella sprawled untidily on my front step.

"We left the show around twelve-thirty."

"What show was that?" He wrote something on the first page.

"Art Slave on Spring Street held a showing of my latest work over the weekend."

"You're an artist?"

"Six years now."

By the time Hunter's partner returned with a still upset Danny whose mascara had by now smeared into a raccoon mask, the coroner had arrived and a host of other people filled my outer foyer. They crowded us in and I found myself next to Danny, who was shivering uncontrollably.

I took his hand, trying to let him know everything was going to be okay. That earned us a couple of glances from the two detectives. McBride looked contemptuous. Hunter seemed torn between bemusement and disgust, most of it aimed at Danny. I was used to that. Even guys who didn't have a problem with gay men had serious issues with the overtly effeminate ones.

Under the curve of my eyelashes I studied Hunter. He was tall, but not as tall as my six-two. Maybe six even and one-eighty and not an ounce looked like fat. He wasn't what I would call handsome in any conventional sense, but he had a ruggedness about him. Black Irish, I thought. Short, black military-cut hair, almost black eyes, an incipient beard told me he shaved a couple of times a day at least. He had a strong chin and full red lips that hadn't smiled the whole time he'd been in my building. Occasionally, when his hounds-tooth jacket would flip open I would get a glimpse of his gun in a holster under his left arm. A chilling reminder these guys weren't here on a social call.

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33, A Gay Love Story excerpt by Justin South

33, A Gay Love Story by Justin Smith is the story of two mid-20 year olds, Rick and Justin, who meet in a heated encounter in a crowded elevator in Sydney. Their love blazes from the first chapter to the last page. Along the way they fight issues of self doubts and fidelity, explore faith and courage, re-live past fragilities, and probe the anxieties and trials of common gay life issues.

Rick and Justin meet and match twelve other lonely, sex and love starved guys, aged 18 to 30. These introductions add to Rick and Justin’s uber-hot sexy scenes that run from the first to closing chapters. The stories of these characters enrich the book’s themes, particularly those of Lou and the 18 year olds, Shorty, and Polynesian French boy, Damien. Shorty is the sad product of an abusive, loveless and directionless upbringing, resulting in his 18 year old body living more in the mindset of a friendship seeking 15/16 year old. His and his lover’s inexperience and blossoming romance embellishes the story with the charm and quaintness of innocent, virginal teenagers embarking on the path of love.

33 is a story of loneliness, hardships, abuses, insecurities, denial, curiosity, desire and love, found in everyday situations that touch feelings and tug at memories. It is a story of deprived love; of the heart’s desperation to find a mate, of the body’s innate needs to find fulfilment from companionship. It speaks of the beauty and bounties realised by guys meeting guys, of ending the abyss of loneliness, of guys falling in love, of gay fellowship and partnership. Balancing these emotions are humour, enlightenment and happiness, the outcomes of considerations, cordiality and honour, as shown by easy going Rick and love-struck, Justin towards each other, and their newfound friends.

33 chronicles the paths of these two hot characters through tender to fearless emotions, peaceful domesticity, and through sadness and trauma caused by dreadful, life-threatening experiences. It reveals their inner strengths of character and feelings, their beliefs, their traits and emotional disturbances. Added to these fabrics are the rich perspectives, wisdoms, personalities and emotions of the other characters. John, a beautiful shy neighbour and product of a dysfunctional family, desperately seeking human touch and acknowledgement, tests Justin’s resolve. Luca tempts Justin at a beach, his handsome Italian allure later swamps Justin’s reasoning. A stressful encounter with Scott turns into unexpected modelling opportunities. When Shorty meets Damien, instant love develops, soaring to high adventures. Rick risks business ties by introducing the Chief’s grandson to a lonely mining worker. Justin becomes a legend in aboriginal lore. Who joins the Mile High Club, and how?

These and many other characters combine to create a colourful tapestry; tales of pacey adventure, heat, fun and excitement, touching nerves, engaging senses and massaging one’s mind. Sinister international corporate intrigue, greed, crime and murder set a background of discovery of personal integrity, and tests Rick and Justin’s dedication towards each other. In gripping life or death outcomes at a diamond mine in Australia’s remote north west, and in the miner’s boardroom in Perth, Justin’s courage and love for his mate are put to extreme tests. Following post trauma recuperation, Rick’s demure character explodes into carefree bandonment. His new found attitude to life is exemplified during a modelling assignment for a Spanish manufacturer of swim, beach and party wear. Risking his new career opportunity, he turns the tour’s shows on four continents into riotous, bacchanalian romps.

Sex, love, intrigue and murder, what could be better? For readers who like hot and graphically described male to male sex scenes, 33 is sure to please you. Scenes are portrayed vividly and differently. Similarly, if you also like riveting jigsaw intrigues of corporate mischief and a mysterious murder, 33 will pleasantly surprise you. Gripping, gun-smoking descriptions of callousness, cowardice, greed, maliciousness and madness by the perpetrators, should add to your reading pleasure.

33, A Gay Love Story
2010

Excerpt:

Small waves swell and roll and froth to and fro over the rippled sand, their quiet chorus joining in splendid harmony with gentle rustlings of palm fronds on the fitful rushes of soft breezes. Occasional splashes of disturbed baitfish sound distantly, fluttering the water’s surface with moon-speckled ripples. Farther out, lying to the breeze, the yacht rides at anchor, bathed in the silvery sheen of the moon glow shimmering across the surface of the lagoon. Sweet aromas of frangipanis and wild orchids and poincianas and magnolias float on the breezes, such symphony of nature reaching us thrashing and writhing in our wild, passionate, romantic embraces on the lustrous talcum sand.

Bathed in the brilliant moon glow of the warm tropical night, our bodies appear painted in monotones of silvers, grays, greens and black, of brilliant glosses and intense contrasting shadows. Their patterns and tones change violently to the chaos of our love moves, to the devouring, uncontrollable intoxications of our passions. We clench in an orgy of fervent desires and ferocious overpowering emotions. Our lips ram our faces, our tongues scrimmage in the ruckus of our superheated ardor. Amid our wild scrambling gropes and parched deep breathing, we squeeze our bodies brutally, clinching our torsos in breath-crushing bear hugs. Amid our musky sweat and other rich aromas of our manliness, we entwine our legs and arms in ecstatic responses to the chemistry of our love potions. We wrestle and squirm in sublime torture in our attempts to reach, what I consider, the impossible: Nirvana, that plinth of love, that unattainable Paradise of complete, everlasting emotional fulfillment, that Eldorado of sublime, idyllic bliss. Our groins collide in angry Nirvanic desire, our eyes blaze to the savagery of our fiery torment. Our bodies madly lunge and crunch to the furor of the approaching pinnacle of our love, of approaching sex, to the expectations of our super-heated excitement.

I tremble violently in my burning anticipation. My mind is consumed, boiling in the blazing eroticism of our love. Emotions are overwhelmed in the tumultuous whirlpools of wild chemicals and charging electricity. As if possible, I clench my lover tighter, rolling and twisting in ever escalating spirals of explosive love. Cradling his head, I scramble kisses over his lips and cheeks and chin and nose and forehead and ears and neck in frantic outpourings of my rampant passions. We gasp between our noisy, panting kisses, his frenzied legs flay mine, his wild arms roam my back, sharp fingernails leaving trails marking his Utopian ecstasy. We batter our engorged cocks into our bellies, sliding, rubbing and humping them in orgiastic delight. The mounting pleasurable flushes, those exotic sensations, intensify in my cock as our smoldering hot love rods touch. My brain jolts to the thrill of that unbelievable male phenomenon, to that singularly exceptional male pleasure when the velvet soft flesh of one hot quivering cock touches and rubs and lies against a similar rampant cock.

That distinct, beyond-blissful sensation is only surpassed by the sudden surges that whip my body in furies of agitated excitement when I vice-grip both cocks together. The feelings from these unique experiences send our sensory systems into fireballs, cause us to buck our heads, wince our eyes and howl in wild ecstatic glee. Oh god, I’m in heaven riding a cyclone of delicious, voluptuous emotions. I hold his face in both hands as I smash a kiss to his lips and seek his tongue. He touches me; he touches my super sensitive dick, grappling it in his hand, making me lurch, making me hump as more unexpected divine pleasures course through me. I yelp to the delights. His other hand engrosses my chest, roams over my tweaked nups, then his lips covet them in his indulgent desires. When I open my eyes I see vague visions of the moon overhead, filtered in a morass of kaleidoscopic colors. Silvered tones of reds and greens and blues and yellows parade across my eyes.

I know I've been to the doorstep of nirvana before, been to the threshold of absolute love. I’ve been close to that feeling of total fulfillment at times, but never as close as I am with Rick at this moment on this beach, bathed in the romantic charm of the moon’s silver glow. I can’t love him any more than I do yet my heart feels an earnest desire to love him more; I can’t give more yet my body yearns to. He consumes my life, my will and passion. I live with the constant thoughts of him in my mind; he is like a god in my life, a god I constantly worship.

I want him in me. My mind is ruled by a demanding need to have our love and bodies combine into the union of one. I need his love tool in me, need him making glorious love to me, to feel bonded in the wonder of the union of sex, to have my love tunnel filled with his supreme gift, to eventually feel his hot sperm spurt deep within me. All night I've wanted him but now it’s a matter of urgent demand. I want to feel the motions of his love contenting me, making me adequate, making me worthy of his love, making me know he loves me, that our sexual coupling is the zenith of our passions. I want him to take me to Nirvana.

My trembling hands fidget on his shoulders, my head again arches to the starless night sky, my eyes filter the moon’s glare, as his tongue continues driving me crazy. I face him, words forming in my parched throat.

“Rick, do it,” I croak, “now.” I demand.

It’s a simple request, frank and to the point; but it carries the meaning of my burning, frustrated emotions. He responds. His eyes tell me. His nimble gentle hands tell me. His passionate tongue and kisses tell me. He makes gentle, exquisite love to me; I’m in heaven.

Chemicals boil in my brain. Electrical currents pulse my nerves. My heart pumps chaotically as my head thumps to the raging energies circuiting my body’s systems. I become a demented, love charged, hormonally haywire basket case. Goosebumps ripple my flesh in erotic tingling reaction to the effects the tip of his roaming tongue and lips have on me as they wind their way along the defines of my acutely sensitive belly and groin. His tongue courses beside my fiery red love pole lying flat against my abdomen, then meanders its scintillating way to torture my scrotum. He licks my balls, sending new floods of spasms through my over-heated senses.

He sucks one ball into his mouth, playing his tongue over and around the sac. Tremors of sheer delight cascade through my groin as he twirls the ball in his mouth. Then he licks the other ball and sucks it into his mouth, causing more quivers to my body as his tongue discovers more highly sensitive membranes. Without warning, he devours my scrotum. He squeezes and suctions my bloated ball sac in a cushion of saliva in his hot mouth, teasing both balls with his tongue while his nose nuzzles the prominent urethra of my steel hard dick. I gulp and shiver.

“Ooohhh Rick,” I groan. His saliva-slicked tongue feels like the faintest caresses of duck down feathering the contours of my sensitive sac.

“Rick,” I yell amid the loud mutterings of animal grunts. He’s causing a storm of hot rushes of exquisite ecstasy in my groin. My legs scissor-grip his body, trembling hands violently clench and slap the blanket while my arched head tosses wildly in a rapturous, sweaty state of bliss.

His nose slides lightly along my twitching love pole. Then his tongue reaches and darts over the base of the shaft, his delicate touch further inflaming the furnace blazing my nerves. In quick reflex, my dick jerks wildly into his face, splattering precum into his hair. It slams back against my groin, flicking precum onto my belly that glosses in the moonlight. His tongue slides along the full length of my semen tract. Its tip reaches and skims sensuously around the almost unbearably sensitive underside of the glans causing hysteria to my senses. Black spots appear before my eyes. He’s tormenting me into unconsciousness as he licks my over-bloated cock head.

Kneeling over me, he uses his bottom lip and chin to steady my vibrating shaft as he stretches his tongue around my head, smearing precum and saliva over it, super sensitizing it in the smooth lubricating ambrosial liqueur. Then he licks my shaft again and again, starting at the base and ending at the knob. Each time he tickles the knob his tongue picks up a string of the ambrosia which he stretches to the base, letting the cum line fall and slick my shaft. He repeatedly licks my pole like an all-day sucker. He licks the sides, alternating from one to the other, licking the head each stroke, causing precum to puddle in my navel, glimmering silver under the moon. Every time he licks he picks up a strand of precum on his tongue and stretches it to my pubes. It looks funny and odd. My dick feels ready to explode. It feels sore from the prolonged love games and highly pressurized blood. I can’t believe it; it feels over extended, super swollen, stiff for too long. It needs relief, but I don’t want to cum, not yet.

“Rick,” I croak. I clear my throat. “Rick,” I repeat, my plea more convincing, mussing his hair with trembling hand. “Please, Rick, please,” grappling his arms and pulling him to me. “No more, please no more. I can’t take it, my beautiful man,” whispering hoarsely into his ear. “Rick. Please. Now, baby,” I beg him.

He nods. His gorgeous smile consumes his face. I see his teeth flashing, starkly contrasting against his otherwise silver sheen and dark monotones cast on his face. His eyes glint as if stunning pools of fire flashes. I’m mesmerized. I dab shaking fingers of both hands against his cheeks, run my thumbs over his strong chin and lips, peer at the new moonlit perspectives of his beauty as the background sounds swarm about us; wavelets lapping the shore, insects singing their choruses, bats squabbling in the distance, trees fluttering in the pleasant breezes. All these murmurings grace my ears as I hold the featured face of my lover in my hands, drawing him to me, to a slow, long embracing kiss, loaded with passion, filled with love; to a kiss meant only for a god.

Moving between my splayed legs, he dips some fingers in the gleaming silver puddle of lubricant in my navel and smears the potion over his hot love piston. His hardened, quaking love spear points towards me, its engorged, magnified head and shaft shining in the stark moonlight. He dips again, spreads my butt cheeks, and locates and strokes his cum coated fingers over my love bud, making me writhe in exotic pleasures to his caressing touches. He raises my left leg above his body, moves into a lying position beside me, then presses his steel hard pole to my love door and smoothly pushes in. I welcome his sex piston, adjusting myself to ease its entry into my fiery tunnel of tormented love and tumultuous lust. His slicked dick slides into me, rubbing along membranes as it progresses deeper. I devour all of him, soon feeling his pelvis and pubes pushing against me. His dick feels like a hot poker in me, its heat inflaming my linings, warming me, adding a pleasant sensation to our intercourse. I love the feeling.

At last we are at one. Finally, I feel that dimension of wholeness I've eagerly sought, of feeling him fill my love grotto, of feeling complete in the mystery and magic of love’s ultimate act. My hand combs his ruffled hair, rubs his neck and shoulders. I mutter, I coo, I encourage him to take us to the door of Nirvana. Slowly he begins his piston actions, thrusting backwards and forwards, sliding his hot poker along my side lining, sending myriads of furious signals throughout my sex system. He tingles my groin most opulently. I gasp and fling my head back, exposing my Adam’s apple to the moon. I wriggle to his touches, intensifying the extreme feelings within me, sending more streaks of passion to my brain. God, don’t let this ever end, I pray.

After he settles into his thrusting action, he roams a hand over my chest, pinching and circling and rubbing each nup. His fingertips amble down between my abdomen muscles to the cum puddle of my belly button and the stretched engorged knob of my love muscle; his fingers circle the knob, then grip my shaft. Feeling his hand holding me sets off a new wave of goose bumps. He squeezes and flexes his finger grip, sliding upwards to let his thumb rub over the knob, then slowly starts stroking, rubbing and twisting his palm and fingers over it on each upward stroke. His technique triggers rushes of heady sensations, bringing on the early tingles of approaching orgasm, most pleasant but too early to enjoy. I clench his hand forcing him to stop his stroking but not wanting him to remove it.

Rick changes position, fluidly swinging under my raised leg, careful to leave his hot love poker in me. He lies on me propping on his elbows either side of my chest. The missionary position lets him thrust more of his love tool into me, lets him reach deeper into the recesses of my love cavern. His new angle and thrusting rhythm now crunches my prostate causing a new tide of flutters to sweep my senses. My engorged sensitive dick wedges between our bellies. The subtle movements of his hot flesh caused by his thrusting motions further thrill my hot cock, rushing its exalted pre-orgasm feelings to new heights of excruciating frustration, of barely controllable containment.

I’m panting in wild bliss, wanting to cum simultaneously with Rick, waiting for his warning, to explode in unison. Yet he keeps thrusting into me. He keeps sensitizing my aching muscle trapped between our bellies. We scrunch our chests, feeling the raised hard nipples rasping our flesh; feeling our lips battering, flattened against each other in utopian desire. Deep breaths filter through my clenched teeth, eyes are rammed shut, my head is clamped beside his as I desperately try to withhold my orgasm. I'm despairing in my attempts, crooking my knees towards my shoulders, wrapping my calves around his waist in a futile attempt to divert attention from my dilemma.

Finally, I crack. “Rick, I can’t hold any longer.”

He breaks my head grip and rubs his lips to mine then arches his back as he rises on his elbows. His signature smile engulfs his face, looking strangely eerie in the filtered light cast by a thin cloud veiling the moon. His eyes twinkle as they look at me while the softened luminescence captures his tongue flicking his open silver tinted lips. He appears in a state of sheer rapturous pleasure, as if hypnotized from the effects of our love feast. He changes rhythm, almost stops, and withdraws to my inner sphincter walls. His hands flex their grips on my arms as he presses his groin towards me, pushing his love stick further into me, deliberately sliding his turgid cock head over my prostate, then back, then over again and again. I distinctly feel his knob rubbing my tingling gland as if it had a special attraction.

He rubs his swollen cock head along a membrane wall till his thick piston is embedded in me. He stops then slowly retreats in similar manner, sliding the head along another part of my lining, sensitizing another sector of his knob, and me. He again repeats the gentle plunging motion, rubbing a different side of his cock head along my membranes, each time fastidiously massaging my prostate, all in all magnifying his and my pleasures to extreme heights. He stops again, inhales deeply and flings his head back. He commences to pump me furiously, plunging and plowing wildly into me. No need to warn me now. I know he is about to cum. He grunts some noises on his harsh breathing. I hold his trembling arms. Finally, my will power deserts me.

“Rick, I’m cuming.”

In an instant my super-charged glans succumb to the acute pleasures of my dynamic, intense orgasm as the relieving release of my cum flows from my balls, floods my sperm tube and squirts out of me in a welcome torrent.

“Uuuhhh,” I exclaim, flinging my head sideways, clamping my eyes shut, grasping and digging my shaking hands into his shoulder flesh. I lurch as the burst of cum from my prone dick, lying against my belly, splatters a thick line over my chest to my neck.

Then Rick shouts those words I love to hear; “Aaahhh...Jus...Jus...JUSTIN!” as his hot cum ravishes the linings of my love cavern. I gaze at my lover, now arched high on his hands either side of me. His face is tossed back, but I momentarily glimpse the look of sheer voluptuous pleasure when he drops his panting head to his chest.

My tumescent dick twitches upwards, released from the clamp of his belly. It releases another volley, this time arching through the air, the pearly string appearing like a comet tail in the moonlight. “Aaahhhh,” I shout, clawing his arms in squirming delight.

“Jus...Jus...JUSTIN!” He repeats in his entranced state, continuing to slash his juices into me, thrusting relentlessly, firing one volley after another. “Jus, Jus. Oh god, Jus,” he stammers in his trembling, rapturous delight.

I fire another comet. Then a smaller one, and another. “Rick,” I croak concurrently as he jabbers his favorite saying to me again.

“Oh god, Justin,” he wheezes as he continues thrusting into me, treating me with his inflamed member, hot cum and happy words. The heat of his juices spreads through my body, sending acute twinges that enhance the already beatific, splendorous feelings, enthralling every nerve in me. He keeps thrusting into me but I know the pinnacle moment of our love bout has passed, know we are sharing the moments of post orgasmic bliss. He slows his piston movements as the flow of his hot cum reduces to a sporadic ooze, as his trembling subsides and he leisurely relaxes to his naturally graceful composure. His coarse breathing gradually abates, his wide blazing eyes return to their smiling gaze. He lowers to rest on his elbows, and rubs his finger tips on my shoulders.

My prostate works overtime as I spend the last of my cum, ejaculating every drop my balls have produced, feeling it ooze to my belly as my dick softens. In the lunar glow my chest appears patterned haphazardly with gleaming specks and globs and trails of my man juice. I’m too buggered to talk, too buggered to think. The enormity of our love fest has drained me leaving my mind incoherent, a deep well devoid of abilities yet overcome with stratospheric satisfaction. My muscles almost feel they lack power and motor control. I’m able to re-grip my legs around his thighs, preventing him from moving and retaining him in me; and I'm able to fold my arms around his neck. In our post orgasm silence I draw his face to mine, brushing my lips to his as he also hugs me, as his belly and chest lower onto the cushion of my love juices. In the prevailing ambience, I reflect: tonight we opened the doors to Nirvana.

We reached Paradise.

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On Days Like These excerpt by Christiane France

In the novella On Days Like These by Christiane France, burned-out mystery writer, Mark Salvatore, asked to borrow the old family home in the hills near Genoa, Italy for some much needed R&R. He envisioned a blissful summer enjoying the warm Italian sun, hanging out with the villagers, eating good home made Italian food, and drinking the local wine.

However, after a frustrating trip via Paris and Nice, Mark finally arrives in Santa Fiori in the rain to find the house has been trashed. Chickens and ducks from a nearby farm have taken possession of the living room, and there’s a naked man asleep under a pile of blankets in the bedroom.

Tony Wheeler is English and says he’s in Italy on business. He also tells Mark that his car has been stolen, and he’s waiting for his clothes to dry and the weather to clear before he can walk to the village to inform the police. For all Mark knows, he could be a drifter, a drunk, or just about anything. However, Mark’s just heard about a bank robbery in Milan just a few hours ago. The thieves got away with the loot and immediately Mark’s creative processes go into high gear. Milan is less than a hundred miles north, and Santa Fiori is just off the main Milan-Genoa highway. What if Tony Wheeler is just an alias? What if he’s one of the thieves, hiding out in the hills until the heat is off?

On Days Like These
Amber Allure
ISBN-13: 978-1-60272-717-5 (Ebook)

Excerpt:

While Mark was inside, talking to the DiNini rep, Tony had taken the opportunity to change into a black tank top and black, skintight jeans that emphasized both his tan and his lean, nicely muscled physique. In one hand, he now held what appeared to be his still-damp clothes; in the other, Mark’s rolled up jogging pants and sweatshirt. Except for his hair, which was straight rather than curly, he reminded Mark of one of those god-like dudes he’d seen on the back of old coins.

“Ready to hit the road?” Mark asked, irritated when he realized his normal speaking voice had dropped a couple of octaves. He had no idea why his voice always sounded husky whenever he had a hard-on—the two weren’t connected as far as he knew—but it was always a dead giveaway for anyone who knew him well. Fortunately, Tony didn’t. At least, not yet. “Trunk’s open if you want to put your stuff in there.”

Tony’s dark eyebrows drew together in a frown as he stowed his luggage and closed the lid. “Sounds like you’ve picked up a cold?”

“No, it’s nothing.” Mark turned away and got in the car.

But as Tony got in beside him, and Mark turned the key in the ignition, he was unable to repress a shiver as Tony ran the tip of a finger up his arm from wrist to elbow.

“It sometimes gets me that way, too.”

“What does? You mean lack of sleep?” Mark pushed his sunglasses up on top of his head and allowed Tony to capture his gaze. While he wasn’t usually one to play games like this, he didn’t want to walk in blind either. If Tony was in love with someone else, as his restless behavior during the night seemed to indicate, then Mark wanted to know what the situation was before he got involved, not after.

“No. You know.”

“I do?”

“Stop playing silly buggers, Mark.” Tony smiled, a long, slow, delicious smile that captured Mark’s complete attention. It also included Tony rimming his lips with the tip of his tongue and once again revealing that goddamn dimple. “I lose my voice, then my muscles feel weak, and it’s like all my strength and energy has been relocated to one very sensitive spot. But why am I explaining this to you? I’m quite sure you know exactly what I mean.”

“Who’s Pete?” Mark asked.

The smile disappeared and Tony’s mouth tightened. “Someone I used to know. Why?”

“Used to?”

“As in once upon a time, past history, over and done with. No one you need worry about. It was over months ago when he found another job and moved to the States.”

“But you still dream about him?”

Tony sighed and glanced away. “Sometimes. Sorry if I woke you up.”

“No problem. You still in love with him?”

“Obsessed is probably a better word.”

Mark thought that was all Tony intended to say. But then he chewed on his thumb for a moment and said, “It was all so fucking stupid and one-sided. I loved him, and he loved himself. He didn’t care who he hurt, or who he screwed, literally or figuratively. I can’t believe it’s been so damn hard letting go. You ever known anyone like that?”

“Sure I have. Hasn’t everyone?” Actually, Mark had had one or two similar experiences of his own, the kind that had left a few scars, but for Tony it sounded like a first. His first experience of finding out that it took a whole lot more than being used, abused and screwed over before the heart really understood what the head had known all along. “It’s not always easy to tell the good guys from the bad. And, as you said, it can be damn hard letting go.”

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Caught By Surprise excerpt by L D Madison

In Caught By Surprise by L D Madison, Federal Agents Jason Lowery and Noah Black wake up in bed naked, but neither one knows how they got to the remote cabin. Jason fears his partner's reaction and the potential fallout if their superiors ever find out. He had misread a fellow officer's interest once and lost it all - his career, his friends, his family's respect. This time around, he would not be the one risking everything.

Noah has always been curious about sex with another man, but his strict up-bring and life in law enforcement made it impossible to explore that side of his nature safely. When he and Jason get locked in a cabin by a well-meaning friend, Noah wants to sample the forbidden.

Both men agree to a single afternoon of passion.

When they are released from the cabin, Jason wants to see where a relationship with Noah might lead. However, Noah is not ready to make such a radical lifestyle change -and he doesn't think he'll ever be ready to come out to friends and family.

Caught By Surprise
Loose-Id (September 21, 2010)
ISBN: 978-1-60737-859-4

Excerpt:

Caught in the midst of an arousing dream, Noah snuggled into the bed, hoping to ward off the chill in the room with the enticing warmth that wrapped around him from behind. Surrendering to his dream lover's embrace, he shivered as a hand at his waist skimmed idly down, softly caressing his navel. He held his breath in anticipation when calloused fingers continued their path downward. He was all in favor of having those skillful fingers wrap around his hardening cock.

Shifting back, Noah moaned, hoping it would encourage his lover to touch him more intimately. He trembled when the wicked hand wrapped around his cock and stroked up and down, up and down. Occasionally, a fingertip would rub the head, tracing the tiny slit, until all he could do was whimper and plead, “Faster, harder.” He knew it was nothing but a forbidden dream, yet his face heated at the sounds he made, the dirty words he whispered.

Maybe there was something to his shrink's advice after all.

Reaching back, Noah curled his fingers on the muscled thigh behind him. His lover's skin was hot, and the tiny, coarse hairs tickled his palm while a hard cock rubbed against him. When his lover's fingers burrowed between his buttocks and circled his sensitive hole, Noah hissed and arched at the shock of pleasure curling up his spine. Who would have thought a simple touch could make him throb that way?

Noah gasped as his lover rubbed the tip of his erection across Noah's twitching entrance but never made an effort to breach him.

At the persistent thrust and friction, his lover simultaneously matched the speed of his strokes on his cock. Noah's mind was reeling; he didn't know whether to focus on the delicious sensations coming from his ass or the viselike grip on his cock. Either way, he wished he could capture the sensations so he could replay them over and over again.

Sliding the covers off, he glanced down, amazed at how real those fingers felt around his cock. Noah couldn't remember ever having such a vivid dream before. He arched his back and hissed when his lover's cock pushed harder, nudging briefly into his body but barely penetrating. Part of him wanted to scream, Stop teasing and fuck me! but his rigid upbringing locked the words in his throat, choking him with shame and regret.

Pushing away the encroaching reality, he focused on his lover, an anchor in the enjoyment of his dreams. Within seconds, Noah cried out, coming furiously against the strong fingers coaxing more and more pleasure from him.

And he was not the only one.

Behind him, his lover thrust frantically between his buttocks and thighs, an unrelenting drive to reach his own satisfaction. As his lover came, Noah felt a hot, sticky fluid on his thighs and a muted shout against his neck.

He didn't know whether it was his heart thudding loudly or his lover's, but both spent several minutes panting and catching their breath.

Sometime later, Noah stretched languidly. Opening his eyes, he glanced at the alarm clock and froze; his small apartment bedroom did not have swanky decor, nor was it done up in delicate blues. Rubbing his eyes, he looked around the room, but everything remained the same -- foreign, unfamiliar.

There was a blue canopy over the bed, covering dark wood posts in a shiny material that looked soft and expensive. He reached down to the silky sheet gathered around his hips, which felt heavenly against his skin. Even the mattress was cozier than anything he'd ever slept in.

Suddenly wide-awake, he realized that a stranger's hand was still loosely wrapped around his prick.

“Oh my God.” Covering his mouth, he closed his eyes briefly, hysterically searching for an answer, a memory, an explanation of how he'd ended up in a stranger's bed -- and having sex -- with a man.

“Damn…what the hell's wrong with me?” the other man muttered groggily.

His heart chilled; he recognized that voice. Jason. Oh my God, I'm in bed with one of my agents… Shit!

Inching away from the hot, sweaty body behind him, Noah staggered off the bed, feeling decidedly hungover, his mind in a fog. Bracing himself against the mattress, he glared at Jason, who was reclining against large pillows and apparently searching for something to wipe away the cum dripping from his hand.

Noah flushed when he realized it was his cum on the blond's hand.

Cheeks flaming, Jason kept his gaze averted as he picked up the edge of the nearest bedsheet and wiped his hand clean.

Staring down at himself, Noah could see a trickle of Jason's semen trailing down the insides of his legs. He'd never seen anything more disturbing in his life. After grabbing one of the sheets, he wiped at the sticky mess, his actions a bit rougher than necessary. When he'd cleaned up as best he could, he gingerly wrapped the sheet around his hips.

“What the hell happ--”

He slapped a hand over Jason's mouth, silencing him abruptly. Waking up in a strange place, under strange circumstances -- it was best not to let anyone know they were conscious.

When blue eyes met his gaze, Noah shook his head and pointed toward the open door. Nodding, Jason got up from the bed and dragged a sheet around his body, making a loose knot at his side.

Both stepped away from the bed and did a quick search of the room, looking for their guns and clothes. When nothing turned up, Noah reached for an ornate candlestick, and Jason grabbed a slim, dark statue from the nightstand. Approaching the open doorway cautiously, they were met with silence and stillness from the outer room.

Noah gave Jason instructions using familiar hand signals. At the blond's nod, he inched around the door frame, taking in the cream-colored walls and extensive bookshelves that lined two walls. A wide window was set into the longest wall, letting weak winter sunlight stream into the room. Cushy armchairs were placed around an unlit fireplace, and an elegant area rug protected Noah's bare feet from the cold hardwood floor.

Cautiously, they explored the room, checking for anything that would give them a hint of their whereabouts and whoever was responsible for their current predicament.

Their search revealed a phone with no service, and no other way to get a message out. The windows and doors were locked, and no amount of force made them budge a centimeter. If there were bugs or cameras in the room, they were undetectable, even to agents with law-enforcement training.

Noah and Jason were all alone in the expensive cabin with no viable exits -- a gilded cage of sorts.

“Noah, you need to see this.” Jason stood by massive glass doors framed by snowy white curtains.

Coming to stand by his friend, Noah gazed out at the frost-covered woodland surrounding the dwelling. No matter which direction he looked, there was nothing but naked trees and cloudless sky. Wherever they'd been taken, the location seemed fairly remote.

Frustrated, Noah tried the doorknob, but it twisted uselessly in his hand. “Shit. Did you see any other exits?”

“Yeah, two, but they're locked from the outside and state-of-the-art. Nothing we can jimmy or pick.” Jason shook his head, still scanning the clearing for any sign of guards posted around the perimeter.

“Fuck!” Noah smacked the glass hard, but the pane didn't even vibrate under the force of the blow. “I can't believe we got ambushed so easily. They got the drop on us like we were a couple of rookies.” He hated making mistakes, especially ones that endangered his life and the lives of his men. “Let's see if we can find something heavy so we can break the glass.”

“We can try, but then we'll be out in twenty-degree weather with no clothes, shoes, money, guns, or cell phones. I don't think we'll get very far. Besides, we're not in imminent danger.” Jason's expression was neutral, typical for the ex-soldier. “So, any theories on how we ended up here?”

Noah rubbed his eyes. “Not a clue. None of the cases we're working fit the profile for whoever owns this place, and none of the perps we've put away in the last three years are anywhere near parole. We must be missing something obvious.” He tried to focus on the few facts they had, but he was having a hard time concentrating with everything that had already happened that morning.

“Still,” Jason said, sarcasm tingeing his voice, “it can't be a coincidence that we're both here, groggy and naked. Where did you get taken?”

“In a downtown parking garage,” Noah said vaguely. “You?”

“Coming out of the diner near the office.” Jason smiled wryly. “Do you think anyone's realized we're missing yet?”

Resting his head against the window, Noah sighed. “They might not miss me right away since I've been ducking out of the office lately, but you're like clockwork. They'll miss you before they miss me.”

“Are you all right?” Jason watched him carefully.

“Yeah, of course, I'm fine.” He delivered the line automatically, closing down that line of questioning immediately. But in the back of his mind, Noah heard his shrink telling him to trust his friends and teammates with more than just his life.

Noah took a deep breath. “I've been seeing someone -- a doctor --”

Alarmed, Jason interrupted, “What? Are you sick?”

“Not that way.” He hesitated, touched by the blond's concern. “After the shooting a few months back, I had to get a psych-evaluation release.” Noah blushed and looked away. “Once I got the all-clear, the shrink asked me to come back. He thought there were other issues I needed to work through.” Noah cleared his throat, embarrassed that he'd visited a shrink for personal reasons.

As Noah's words sank in, Jason teased, “Noah Black is in therapy?”

“Fuck you,” Noah shot back without any real anger.

Before Jason could respond, the phone rang, making a shrill noise in the cavernous room.

“I thought the line was dead,” Jason said as he approached the desk in the far corner.

“It was when I tried it. No dial tone and no dialing out,” Noah replied, standing next to Jason. Reaching out, he pressed the Speaker button.

An arrogant, satisfied voice came over the line. “I hope you liked my gift, Jason.”

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The Princess of the Andes excerpt by Victo J Banis

In this excerpt from The Princess of the Andes, by Victor J. Banis, Raymond Letterman is a bore. He has driven the Captain and the crew of The Princess of the Andes to desperation with his incessant chatter – and the ship’s doctor comes up with a possible solution…



The Princess of the Andes
Untread Reads Publishing (June 14, 2010)
ASIN: B003S3S56C



Excerpt:

When he went into the dining room a bit later, he found Captain Herrman and his mate, Hans, drinking a beer together.

"Join us, Doctor," the Captain greeted him. "We're just holding a council of war. "You know that Christmas Eve is only three days away."

"Of course."

They had brought a Christmas tree all the way from Los Angeles and the crew had been looking forward to the occasion. Separated as they were from their families, they took a very sentimental view of the holiday.

"Mister Letterman outdid himself at lunch today," the mate said. "He scarcely stopped for breath the whole time."

"It's hard enough to be apart from one's family at Christmas time, but I cannot endure the thought of spending the entire evening listening to that incessant chatterbox."

"Short of throwing him overboard, I don't know what you can do," the doctor said. "He's not a bad old soul, you know. He just needs a man."

"What on earth do you mean?" the Captain cried.

"Oh, come now, gentleman," the doctor scolded them, "Surely you must have realized by now that Mister Letterman is homosexual. Gay, in their own terms."

The Captain's face reddened. "Yes, that thought crossed my mind, but the man is sixty if he's a day. You can't mean to suggest that he's thinking of romance at his age."

"I think it all the more likely at his age," the doctor said. "All that loquacity. A good session with a lusty man, whatever it is that those people do together, it would relax all those jangled nerves. I give you my word we'd have some quiet then."

The Captain smiled at the suggestion and his eyes twinkled. "Well, then, doctor, since you are a bachelor, and this is the remedy you suggest, I think it is up to you to see to the matter."

"Pardon me, Captain, but as ship's doctor it is up to me to prescribe treatment for the afflictions of our passengers, but it is not my duty to administer it. Besides, I am past the age of sixty myself. I think that youth is an essential in this matter, and good looks an advantage. I believe our mate here, Hans, would be the ideal one to solve the problem."

Hans leapt to his feet. "Me. I wouldn't. I couldn't. Are you suggesting I am…?"

"Oh, don't be foolish," the Captain said. "You're a sailor, aren't you? Sailors have a long tradition in these matters. Didn't I see you dancing with another sailor in Belem not so long ago?"

"It was only a samba."

"Besides, you're handsome, young, and strong. We have two more weeks before we reach Los Angeles and can be free from this pest. Surely you wouldn't let the rest of us down."

"No, no, Captain, you ask too much of me. I was only married two months before we set sail, and I can hardly return to my bride and confess that I have already been unfaithful, and with a man in the bargain."

"Am I then to have the rest of my trip, and my Christmas holiday to boot, ruined because there is no man on my ship to show a little kindness to an aging homosexual? I swear it, I shall run us aground."

"What about Peter?" Hans said in a flash of inspiration. "The radio operator?"

The Captain gave a roar and pounded upon the table. "By all the angels in Heaven," he cried, "You have found the very solution. Bring that young man here, at once."

When the radio operator, young Peter, was brought into the dining room, he wondered uneasily if he had done something wrong, but he clicked his heels smartly together and stood at attention while the four men—the engineer had now joined the others—looked him over at some length.

Peter was tall, wide of shoulder and narrow of hip. His hair, a riot of curls, was golden, his eyes the blue of the sky—the very epitome of Teutonic manhood.

"How old are you, young man?" The Captain asked.

"I'm twenty one, sir."

"Married?"

"No, sir."

"You are aware, are you not, that we still have one passenger aboard?"

"Yes, Sir. I've seen him a time or two on deck. He always says a very polite good morning to me."

"And I trust you have responded in kind?"

"Yes, Sir."

"That is good, then." The Captain assumed a serious manner, and his face took on a stern impression.

"We are a cargo ship," he said, "but as you know, we also carry passengers and because it allows us to turn a profit, this is a branch of our business our owners want us to encourage. My instructions are that we are, each of us, to do everything that we can to ensure the happiness and the comforts of our passengers. I trust that you recognize the importance of that mission."

The radio man looked puzzled, but he nodded and said, "Yes, sir. I am always happy to do what I can to make our passengers happy."

"Good. The gentleman in question needs the attentions of a man."

"Attentions, Sir?" Peter screwed up his face in puzzlement.

The Captain reddened, but he said frankly, "Of a sexual nature. And the doctor and I have decided that you are the perfect one to resolve this issue."

"Of a sexual nature, Sir? You mean, from me?" The young man blushed and gave a little laugh, but he quickly saw that this was not a matter of amusement to the others in the room. "But, I'm not inclined that way, Sir. Anyway, the gentleman is old, he's old enough to be my father."

"At your age, that shouldn't matter in the least. When I was twenty one…well, no matter, my exploits are not the issue here. Besides, this is a gentleman of distinction. He has talked with us evening after evening of his acquaintances in the city of the Angels."

"He appears to be on a first name basis with a great many members of the movie community," Hans added.

"There, you see," the Captain nodded his approval. "Who knows what might come of your kindness in this matter? You're a good-looking fellow, I don't mind telling you that. Who's to say you might not find yourself enjoying a movie career as a result of doing a good deed. It's not often one gets the opportunity to combine a little pleasure with a chance at fame and fortune."

"But, Sir…"

"I am not making a request of you," The Captain interrupted him in his sternest voice, "I am giving you an order. You will present yourself to Mister Letterman in his cabin at exactly eleven o'clock tonight."

"But, what shall I do?"

"Do? What kind of foolish question is that? Do what comes naturally."

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Match Maker excerpt by Alan Chin

In the four years since being forced off the professional tour for being gay, Daniel Bottega has taught tennis at a second-rate country club. He found a sanctuary to hide from an unkind world, while his lover, Jared Stoderling, fought a losing battle with alcohol addiction to cope with his disappointment of not playing on the pro circuit.

Now Daniel has another chance at the tour by coaching tennis prodigy Connor Lin to a Grand Slam championship win. He shares his chance with Jared by convincing him to return to the pro circuit as Connor’s doubles partner.

Competing on the world tour is challenging enough, but Daniel and Jared also face major media attention, political fallout from the pro association, and a shocking amount of hate that threatens Connor’s career in tennis, Jared’s love for Daniel, and Daniel’s very life.

Match Maker
Dreamspinner Press (Sept 2010)
ISBN-13 978-1-61581-588-3 (electronic)
ISBN-13 978-1-61581-587-6

Excerpt:

Connor Lin’s eyes grew large as the ball bounced short of the service line and sailed into his strike zone. He drew his racket back while planting his body in perfect balance; his arm swung, shoulders rotated, and his racket arched up through the ball and continued into a follow-through. The ball seemed to shriek from the impact as it sped bullet-fast toward the sideline. It scorched a pale mark on the green court a half-inch from the white line. But once again, it was the half-inch on the far side of the line. The lineman’s hand flew up, and he yelled, “Out.”

Connor dropped his racket and blinked at the mark, obviously not quite believing that he had lost another game.

Sweat dripped from his nose and chin.

He glanced at the chair umpire, attempting to coerce an overrule, but the chair awarded the game to Connor’s opponent.

Connor lifted the flap of his shirt, mopped his face, and bent to pick up his racket.

Watching him from the bleachers, it occurred to me that he must have dreamed about this match for most of his teenaged life. He had begun the first game with all the charisma of a champion poised for a run at brilliance, but the match had mutated into his worst nightmare. No brilliance materialized. Point by point, his entire being shriveled. His confidence and composure evaporated.

There was nothing anyone could do to reverse his downward spiral. I felt his frustration, a searing tightness in my abdomen. I had experienced the same ordeal many times, and even though half a decade had passed since then, I knew precisely how he felt: like a man alone at thirty thousand feet without a parachute. He was playing a quarterfinal match on the show court of an ATP satellite tennis tournament, set within the twisted pine forest between Carmel and the craggy cliffs of Big Sur. Five hundred shrieking, stomping fans packed the bleachers, and the loudest of them was Connor’s father, who sat three rows below me in the players’ section.

Cold fear. It first appeared in Connor’s eyes when he must have realized that, without the help of divine intervention, he would lose to a sixteen-year-old whose groundstrokes resembled a caveman swinging a club. His fear visibly gave birth to hatred, seething, and finally, humiliation. What Connor’s eyes showed eventually revealed itself in his body language. He looked like a pro tennis player—lean, agile body, good legs, coffee-colored hair gathered into a ponytail and covered with a ball-cap turned back to front, and the prettiest almond-shaped eyes I’d ever seen—but his slumped shoulders and marred facial expressions gave him away. He was out of his league, and he knew it.

I mentally listed his technical problems with a practiced eye. He had a decent first serve, but a weak, loopy second serve that my aunt Betsy could wallop for a winner. And when serving a critical point, his toss fell an inch or so shorter than normal, making him hit down on the ball and dump his serve into the net. He scrambled from side to side with the fluid steps that produce great footwork, but he seemed unsure of himself anywhere in front of the baseline, and three volleys hacked into the net and a botched overhead told me why.

Other than that, all his troubles lay between his ears. His problems stemmed from impatience. Instead of working the rallies while waiting for a weak ball to attack, he tried to crush winners from a defensive position. He won enough points to keep him pulling the trigger, but he also sprayed enough balls long, wide, and into the net to lose every game.

Nevertheless, even with his obvious technical and mental issues, he was thrilling to watch. His grace, explosive speed, and physical beauty sent chills up my spine. I was not in love with him. How could I be? I had never even met him. But I loved watching him play.

Connor lost the first set with a bagel, and his father shrieked hysterically. At first, he directed his outburst at Connor, telling the boy how to play, then at the opponent, for not being good enough to be on the same court with his son. The chair umpire notified security on his walkie-talkie, and we all waited while two uniformed men escorted Connor’s father from the bleachers. He screamed obscenities all the way to the parking lot.

Connor sat through the whole scene crouched forward on his bench with a white towel draped over his head. I would have bet fifty bucks that tears were flowing under that towel, but I doubt I would have found any takers.

Connor’s game continued to disintegrate through the second set. After a heated argument with the chair umpire over a questionable line call, he turned to flip the bird at a heckling spectator and received a code of conduct warning for “visible” obscenity. Two games later, another out call had him tomahawking his racket and unleashing a screech. It was a sound of pure anguish. I could only shake my head and watch as that temperamental athlete, with the sublime groundstrokes of a top-ten player, suffered a mental meltdown in public view.

I longed to cradle him in my arms and explain that it was only a game, that it should be fun. I wanted him to know that he didn’t need to battle against the pressures that the world threw at him, but he was in no condition to listen to anybody, least of all a has-been like me.

In Connor’s last service game, while he waited for his opponent to step to the baseline, he glanced into the stands. We made eye contact for a dozen seconds, and he looked right through me, as if to say, “Fuck you, you know-it-all bastard. At least I’m down here, still in the fight. What the fuck are you doing?” I saw something flicker deep within those beautiful eyes, something more than defiant pride. Or maybe I just chose to see. Even though his emotions had run away with him, I saw his courage as clearly as if he were holding up his heart like a metal shield.

I sucked in my breath and held it until he looked away.

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Fall Into the Night excerpt by P. A. Brown

Fall Into The Night by P. A. Brown is an epic science fiction tale, a journey of discovery. Captain Terik u Selhdun has known darkness all of his life. Captain of the Necromancer, the ruler of Tiamat, his ancestral home, he is coerced into taking a small group of scientists in search of the legendary birthplace of humanity. Earth -- Terra -- was lost to history during the Exodus. From the beginning trouble dogs the expedition, from a failed assassination attempt to the manipulations of a despotic Suzerain and a brutal Navy Admiral who have no intention of letting Selhdun or his mission succeed.


Fall Into the Night
Amber Allure (July 19, 2010)
ISBN-13: 978-1-60272-713-7 (Electronic)
ISBN-13: 978-1-60272-777-9 (Paperback

Excerpt:

Chapter One

"So the old fool finally decided to die."

Terik u Selhdun tipped his wineglass back and let the cool liquid slip down his throat. He set the glass onto the table and studied the soft reflections of the other diners in the curved glasteel windows to his right. A pulse beat in his jaw. The scarred flesh on the side of his head tugged at the embedded metal alloy of his link. Ship lay on the other side of that link; his own power. A power that had nothing to do with his family or his name. "I'd say it was about time, but that's a lie. He was sixty years too late."

"You intend to go through with this, then?" Pakal Tarskaya frowned, his ever-present accent thickened as it always did when he was upset. Narrowed lids half concealed the unusual silver-gray of his eyes. The low light emitted by the walls of their booth gleamed off his mahogany-brown, hairless skull. "Even knowing how dangerous it is to be in power right now?"

"Tiamat's mine by birthright." Selhdun glanced out the enormous window, toward the lights of the planet Nexus thirty-six thousand kilometers below them. It was night on this side, and the lights of the endless city filled nearly every visible hectare of both continents. Even the seas overflowed with lights."I swear that nest of lights grows denser each time we return. Except there..." He stared down at the dark blemish the size of his manicured thumbnail that was the Suzerain's royal estate on the shores of the Khabarovsk Sea. "How is it, you think, that my cher-cousin, the Suzerain, manages to reside amid so much light and yet cannot see? He plies his rule upon these hapless souls and thinks they love him because they haven't figured out how to rid themselves of him once and for all. They haven't a clue what to replace him with."

Pakal glanced around quickly. The restaurant hummed with quiet activity. "You should take care, Terik. Such words, in the wrong ears could be trouble even for you."

"Even the Suzerain has to pretend my ascendancy to Ogema means something. He will observe the legal niceties of his own laws," Selhdun said. "Why do you think I plan to take what is mine? Once I'm Ogema, even the Suzerain won't dare touch us."

"He has other ways to rid himself of troublemakers."

Selhdun looked away from the planet, beyond the delicate lacework of metal. If he squinted, he could just make out the distant outline of his ship, the Necromancer, at dock on the outer fringes of the Spindle.

Ninety-eight hours earlier, he had brought the Necromancer out of Jump into Nexian space. There a message waited for him from his estranged family. His father was dead. He looked back to find Pakal watching him. He raised his wineglass. "The Ogema is dead. Long live the Ogema."

From the nearest tables, the voices of other diners were muffled whispers. Selhdun saw several sneak covert looks his way.

"Do you think they've heard?" He watched Pakal's eyebrow go up and answered his own question. "Of course, they have. Probably before I did. Hell, probably before my father did."

"Many of them support the Suzerain. You would do well to watch yourself while you are here, Terik," Pakal said. He toyed with the heavy base of his lead crystal glass, then met Selhdun's eyes again. "Or do you expect me to call you my Lord now?"

"Would you?"

Pakal snorted, rousing a smile from Selhdun.

"You must know what will happen if you walk back into that viper's nest. Your family..." Pakal shook his head. "How can you want to return, after all this time?"

"If I don't, who benefits? Will my mother be inconsolable if I allow Kerstrik to usurp me? She would like nothing better." Selhdun's mouth twisted in a feral smile. "Do I let her win--after all this time?"

"Win? Who wins? Not us. Not you. If you go through with this farce who will protect you once you are back there?"

"Are you saying you're no match for Kerstrik's scheming? Or my mother's?" A servant offered them a tray of sweets; after looking it over Selhdun flicked his hand in dismissal. "Buy more guards, if it makes you happy."

Pakal put one hand atop Selhdun's, stilling his restless movements on the soft table cover. "You are not fit--" Pakal frowned as though aware he had to be careful with his words. "How long has it been since you were dirtside? Months? The polo-match the Suzerain insisted everyone attend? You hated it. Remember the trouble you had just walking? Do you really want to go through that again? Are your muscles capable of such strain?"

"Just because I refuse to join you in the gym at some ungodly hour for those ridiculous calisthenics of yours, you think me weak."

Selhdun pulled his hand away. "Tomorrow you will begin preparations to leave. Call Kaari and tell her to start prepping the Necromancer.

The Cyxers are going to meet us on Tiamat anyway. We'll just arrive early." He caught the look Pakal gave him. "I am going back, Pakal."

Pakal sighed and looked out beyond the window separating the diners from the hard vacuum beyond. "I am glad now I hired the new apprentice when I did. Kaari has been showing him the ropes; we can consider ourselves fully staffed again."

Selhdun raised one eyebrow. "The boy from Xua? You're really going to offer him the contract? I thought you just brought him along to amuse yourself while I was in court."

"Nikoli is hardly a boy. An eighteen-year-old Xuan has already lived a dozen lifetimes beyond what this pampered crowd knows." He glanced around the elegant room. "He holds all the required Hegemon certificates. Now at least our crew compliment is back where it should be."

"I hope he's worth the bounty they made you put up."

"How did you know about that?" Pakal's narrow face went dangerously still.
Selhdun shrugged. "You forget there are those who enjoy keeping me informed of your behavior. Surely you know they envy you."

"I try to forget."

"So, is he worth it?" Selhdun grinned at the look of quiet exasperation Pakal gave him. "You forget I've seen him. You're lucky I'm not the jealous type."

Outside a trio of plate-sized Stationtechs moved across a nearby strut. The crab-like 'Techs were busy at some task, tending to station repairs as their continually remodified programming dictated. He caught a glimpse of his image in the glasteel window. The soft lights reflected off a skull, hairless like Pakal's, except for the braided queue of black hair hanging down the small of his back. The network of biosteel above his left ear glittered in the light like a fine strand of jewels.

"It's agreed then; we return," Selhdun said. He raised his wineglass. "To Tiamat, and profit where we find it."

Pat Brown
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